Why me?

This morning I was recovering from a rough thinking day yesterday. I’d love to tell you I know why some days I am more anxious than others. But. I don’t know why.
Yesterday I was obsessing pretty bad on the “What if’s?”
I’d also love to tell you that I quickly returned to peace as I stood strong on the lessons God has taught me over 30 years about how my brain works. But.. it was quite the opposite. I didn’t discipline myself to focus on Jesus and His Word! I was in Over-active Figure Outer Mode.”
I was googling instead of praying.
I was all into “Why me?” And not into “Thank You Jesus!”
I wore myself out overthinking yesterday and dropped into bed exhausted.
This morning……
I repented.
As I stood with my face in the sunrise… I said to God.
“I need You!”
Here’s what God and I said to each other next…
“Who are you?” -God
“I’m You’re girl.” -Me
“Then what is this all about?”-God
……….tears…….
As I realized I had forgotten again…. I am Unforsaken!
I’m not alone!
I never, ever will be alone!
I have God in me!
I am safe and able to make right choices when I let Him lead!
I can discipline myself to not fear!
……I said;
“I’m sorry Daddy!”

Then here comes the peace……
God said “Go read Psalm 119.”

And here I am now….. telling you, God wants us to remember…..
He isn’t going anywhere.
He’s right here!
He’s in you, if you have made Jesus Lord!
He is our loving Daddy.
He won’t let you fall.
Now go…. Allow His Word to counsel you.
This is the day that The Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.